Hello, Dreamers
Welcome to Dreaming of Diapers & Dimples, a fertility blog that focuses on my journey to motherhood and important fertility related topics. My husband and I started trying to conceive in late July 2017 and we never imagined that a year later, we would be where we are today. I was clinically diagnosed with Endometriosis (which was no surprise to me) in May 2018 and have been doing an anti-inflammatory diet ever since. In June/July 2018 - we will begin fertility testing and continuing our efforts to become parents. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for following my journey to motherhood, never hesitate to send me a message (form below) and share your journey. xoxo
Luckily next year, you’ll get a card signed “From Baby C and me” and the letter will be a lot more uplifting and positive. There’s still a chance that next year this time, we have a baby in our arms. Let’s hold on to that and make it a reality.
We've been cautious about our days and timing but I'm getting stressing if we miss the window or not. At this point, I really have done all I can do on my own. It's time to sit back and get help and try not to worry about every little thing.
Going into this appointment, I didn't know what to expect. I mean, I've never done this before. I didn't know if they could do any of the needed procedures there. I didn't know how quickly I could get a referral. I had a lot of questions and felt like my doctor answered all of them.
Although I feel a lot better, I just don't know how we got here. A year ago, we had a conversation to start trying to conceive and now we are making appointments with a fertility clinic.
If you follow me on Instagram then you may have already seen a few of my Instagram stories. I’ve been drinking FertiliTea this cycle and I’m genuinely hoping that it does help me get pregnant. I’m a huge hot tea lover and I’ve thought about purchasing FertiliTea for awhile but of course, I was skeptical. If you love to research like I do, then you know that researching what hot teas are safe to drink is nearly impossible because there is a lot of mixed reviews but FertiliTea is designed to help you get pregnant so I felt like I could trust the product.
Now that I am officially in my twelfth cycle of trying to conceive our first little baby C, I've reflected on the last 12 months/cycles because I've learned a lot. I've not only learned a lot about my body, my cycle, my wants and needs, but I've learned a lot about myself and my marriage with my husband. All are really good things but I've learned a lot and although this time has been hard and trying -- at least something good is coming from it.
Moving forward, I don't know what I want to do yet. I keep thinking that taking cycle twelve off would be nice but I don't know if I can do that. I have a doctor appointment on June 7th where we are going to talk about the fact that we've been trying for almost twelve complete cycles with no success and I'm going to talk about doing bloodwork, and ultrasound, and ask more information on the surgery for Endometriosis. I feel like I need a definite diagnosis and I know that surgery is the only way to do that.
I am doing my very best to feel positive this cycle and I have found myself fighting back negative feelings more often than usual. I’ll do my best to keep this update positive but I do want to tell you all how I am feeling, because I know that I am not alone.
Project 1:8 was started with the goal of spreading awareness about the struggle of infertility. Every few weeks, we pick a couple or individual and share their story across social media. After two weeks, we donate a portion of our profits to the couple to help them offset the medical costs that come with this heartbreaking diagnosis. We also accept direct donations, which go right to the current couple.
The biggest change this week was my inflammation diet. I started this on May 3rd and 100% cut diary, soy, artificial sugar, and bread/gluten other than Whole Grain or Sprouted Grain bread. The next thing I needed to tackle was red meat but I recently stopped eating red meat on May 10th. All of these foods, cause inflammation which can be preventing me from getting pregnant. I shared in my blog post about my Endometriosis diagnosis, but I felt a lot of anger at first because no one caught this sooner.
He agreed that the next step was an HSG (which my OBGYN told me would be next) but he gave me two options. Option one is have the HSG and if there is any blockage or concern, then we will do the surgery to surgically diagnosis and remove the Endometriosis and fix whatever issue is going on with the tubes. Option two, go ahead with the surgery, diagnosis and treat the Endometriosis and take a look at the tubes, run the dye, etc. He told me that he thinks I should do option one, because it’s obviously less invasive and he would rather not do surgery if he doesn’t have to. I agreed!