Cycle Eleven Update

When I first started this blog in December 2017, I gave updates almost daily and that faded because well, not much changes. Also as time goes on, you don’t track all of the same things or pay attention to the same symptoms. You just kind of get use to what your life is like now. For the past few cycles, I’ve been trying to give you two updates a cycle - one around ovulation and the other in the middle or end of my two week wait. Well, it’s time for my first update of the eleventh cycle of trying to conceive! *Geez, I absolutely hate writing what cycle I am on*

 

So, if you haven’t checked in lately, I shared a blog post recapping my first acupuncture appointment and if you did read that then you already know that my acupuncturist believes that I have Endometriosis. I know what you are thinking, why would I go by an acupuncturists opinion, but that answer is simple. Majority of her patients are coming to her to get pregnant. A lot of them have suffered from infertility and are moving forward with IVF or IUIs and look to acupuncture for help. Along with those women who suffer from infertility, a lot of them also have Endometriosis which she knows a lot of information on and gave me so much information to take home on how to “treat” it, if you want to call it that. So that has been something new that I’ve done this cycle. There have been a few other new things but I am planning on sharing those with you later on this week! 

 

The biggest change this week was my inflammation diet. I started this on May 3rd and 100% cut diary, soy, artificial sugar, and bread/gluten other than Whole Grain or Sprouted Grain bread. The next thing I needed to tackle was red meat but I recently stopped eating red meat on May 10th. All of these foods, cause inflammation which can be preventing me from getting pregnant. I shared in my blog post about my Endometriosis diagnosis, but I felt a lot of anger at first because no one caught this sooner. I don’t have a great relationship with my mother but I still feel angry that as a child, no one went to bat for me and told my doctor that putting me on brith control or calling this “normal” isn’t the right thing to do. But I’ve learned from my experiences and when or if I have a daughter, she is lucky because I will be fully educated on all of the things a woman should know about her body so that I can better protect her from things like Endo or PCOS because the long-term effects are heartbreaking. But that’s enough with basically the same topic I wrote twice about last week.

 

Other than the acupuncture for a stronger ovulation and anxiety, not much has changed. I don’t know if that’s a bad thing or a good thing. We’ve been doing a lot of talking about telling our families that we are trying to conceive but we don’t really know how to get the words out. If anyone has any advice for that, feel free to comment below or email me. I’d love to hear what you have to say. I’m very close with my brother but he is in the military so I don’t get to see him often. His base is less than 5 hours away, it’s just hard to coordinate time. I really want to start with him because I feel like thats a safe place. My husband doesn’t want him family to think we aren’t trying or that we don’t want kids because within the last few months his mom has made a few comments, all kind-heartedly. We’ve been together for six years and married for three years, so I think that naturally people are going to start wondering if it’s going to happen. Along with telling our families, I really want to scream about it from the roof top but I know I can’t. Ever since I joined this community, I just want to do more but find myself not doing as much as I could. I’d love to put my name all over this blog and show the world how hard I am trying to be a mom but I don’t think it’s appropriate quite yet, although it would feel really freeing. 

 

I’m really just trying to relax. Actually, as I am writing this I just got a dark second line on my Easy @ Home OPK! I’m on cycle day 16 which is usually when I get a peak so I will probably ovulate tomorrow. I think we’ve given it a good chance this month but I also feel like we give it a good chance every month. 

 

So although it’s not much of an update, things are going great and I’m trying to stay positive all while thinking about our next step as we get into the year mark of trying to conceive. It brings up a lot of emotions for me so I am trying to shelf the issue until June, when I have my year-follow up appointment with my OBGYN. Again, if you have advice on that too, give it to me!

 

I have some great things coming on the blog - I am 100% focused this week and getting to work on things asap. If you want to receive blog posts to your inbox, subscribe to my newsletter! You can always unsubscribe later if you wish.

 

Have a great week, Dreamers!

Endometriosis Diagnosis

Hello, dreamers! Thank you for reading yet another blog post by yours truly. Today I wanted to discuss Endometriosis since, I was recently told that I “more than likely” had it based on my symptoms. This didn’t come as a complete shock to me but I never thought that I would have something that can cause infertility, but here I am. If you read my last blog post about my first acupuncture experience, then you already know that the acupuncturist specializes in fertility wellness and treats a lot of Endometriosis in her patients, so I very much trust her opinion. Something that I learned was that the only way to truly diagnose Endometriosis is by surgery which isn’t ideal in most cases. Sometimes doctors can tell from ultrasounds but even that is rare so when I write diagnosis like “diagnosis” it’s because I’m only diagnosed based on symptoms and medical history. I do have an appointment with my doctor in June where I may request an ultrasound, if possible.

 

I started my period when I was 13 years old, which was actually later than some other girls in my grade. I don’t remember much about my first period other than my mother slapping me, don’t call 911 yet, it was a “Jewish” tradition that was carried on for each woman in my family. The slap wasn’t hard so I was okay. That’s not even the worst thing that my mom did during my childhood, which we can get to at another time. I don’t really remember cramping or anything like that, I honestly don’t even know if women experience cramping during their first period and for all I know, it hurt like hell. It’s been 12 years, so my memory is a little blurry. 

 

My earliest memory of a painful period was when I was 14 or 15 years old, a freshman in high school. I remember the pain being so bad that I asked to be excused from class numerous times so I could cry in the bathroom. I didn’t have medicine or heat. After awhile, I would tell the teacher in a whisper that I wasn’t feeling well and then I would go to the front office where the school nurse worked and I would lay on the carpet or the couch in the fetal position and cry until one of my parents could pick me up from school. This was a very common occurrence. 

 

From then on, my periods were painful basically every month. I missed a lot of school days because the pain was so bad.

 

Something else that isn’t talked about with painful periods, is the very heavy bleeding. I wore pads until I was 16 years old because tampons would intimidate me. I was the girl that bled through her underwear and pants often and it was always so embarrassing. When I was in middle school, I was too afraid to ask the teacher if I could use the restroom every hour so I would wait until break which was usually 2 or 3 hours apart and by then, it was usually too late. I’ve always had a heavy blood flow during my periods, that hasn’t changed. I still remember what it was like to sleep with a pad on and it was miserable, which I am sure a lot of you know. If I didn’t wake up to change the pad in the middle of the night, I would wake up in a mess. Which was never fun. 

 

My symptoms include:

  • Heavy blood flow during periods
  • Painful periods (usually the first 24 hours, rare occasion for the pain to last the first 48 hours)
  • Cramping during ovulation (usually pretty noticeable and occasionally I have to use heat to treat the cramping pain)
  • Occassion pain during sex
  • Often extremely nauseous during the first 24 hours of my period
  • Hot sweats all during the day, only during the first 24 hours of my period
  • Headaches and mood swings 5 or less days prior to my period starting

 

So, as you can see from the list above, I have a lot of period symptoms. You would think they would be hard to keep track of. I’d say I experience these symptoms 3 out of 4 periods and I feel very lucky on the cycles where everything is painless and “normal”.

 

As I mentioned above this diagnosis isn’t surprising to me. The more I’ve gotten into this community the more I have learned about PCOS and Endometriosis along with other underlining issues with infertility. Something that does bother me is the fact that I’ve gone to my doctor (which has changed 3x since I was 13) about my painful periods. I even went to the emergency room one time because the pain was so bad and I don’t remember ever hearing the word “Endometriosis” and it’s confusing to me. If my symptoms were always this bad, why not even educate me or my family on what I can do to help my cramping and other symptoms? Instead at 16 I was put on birth control to “regulate my periods and help with period cramps” but in reality the birth control actually made my cramps a lot worse. I stopped taking the birth control at 18 years old and now that I am married and trying to conceive, I am very thankful that I didn’t take birth control longer because I see how it can affect fertility. 

 

Moving forward, I am working on the anti-inflammatory diet which has been an experience. I am working on sharing an update on how I am doing with that and I am going to share the healthy alternatives that I am adding into my diet, in case any of you are on this diet or interested in giving it a try. I am currently about to ovulate for cycle 11 so I won’t know if this diet has “worked” until later but we will see. 

 

Comment below or send me an email if you or someone you know has been diagnosed with Endometriosis and let me know how you cope/what you’ve changed about your lifestyle/etc.