When I first started this blog in December 2017, I gave updates almost daily and that faded because well, not much changes. Also as time goes on, you don’t track all of the same things or pay attention to the same symptoms. You just kind of get use to what your life is like now. For the past few cycles, I’ve been trying to give you two updates a cycle - one around ovulation and the other in the middle or end of my two week wait. Well, it’s time for my first update of the eleventh cycle of trying to conceive! *Geez, I absolutely hate writing what cycle I am on*
So, if you haven’t checked in lately, I shared a blog post recapping my first acupuncture appointment and if you did read that then you already know that my acupuncturist believes that I have Endometriosis. I know what you are thinking, why would I go by an acupuncturists opinion, but that answer is simple. Majority of her patients are coming to her to get pregnant. A lot of them have suffered from infertility and are moving forward with IVF or IUIs and look to acupuncture for help. Along with those women who suffer from infertility, a lot of them also have Endometriosis which she knows a lot of information on and gave me so much information to take home on how to “treat” it, if you want to call it that. So that has been something new that I’ve done this cycle. There have been a few other new things but I am planning on sharing those with you later on this week!
The biggest change this week was my inflammation diet. I started this on May 3rd and 100% cut diary, soy, artificial sugar, and bread/gluten other than Whole Grain or Sprouted Grain bread. The next thing I needed to tackle was red meat but I recently stopped eating red meat on May 10th. All of these foods, cause inflammation which can be preventing me from getting pregnant. I shared in my blog post about my Endometriosis diagnosis, but I felt a lot of anger at first because no one caught this sooner. I don’t have a great relationship with my mother but I still feel angry that as a child, no one went to bat for me and told my doctor that putting me on brith control or calling this “normal” isn’t the right thing to do. But I’ve learned from my experiences and when or if I have a daughter, she is lucky because I will be fully educated on all of the things a woman should know about her body so that I can better protect her from things like Endo or PCOS because the long-term effects are heartbreaking. But that’s enough with basically the same topic I wrote twice about last week.
Other than the acupuncture for a stronger ovulation and anxiety, not much has changed. I don’t know if that’s a bad thing or a good thing. We’ve been doing a lot of talking about telling our families that we are trying to conceive but we don’t really know how to get the words out. If anyone has any advice for that, feel free to comment below or email me. I’d love to hear what you have to say. I’m very close with my brother but he is in the military so I don’t get to see him often. His base is less than 5 hours away, it’s just hard to coordinate time. I really want to start with him because I feel like thats a safe place. My husband doesn’t want him family to think we aren’t trying or that we don’t want kids because within the last few months his mom has made a few comments, all kind-heartedly. We’ve been together for six years and married for three years, so I think that naturally people are going to start wondering if it’s going to happen. Along with telling our families, I really want to scream about it from the roof top but I know I can’t. Ever since I joined this community, I just want to do more but find myself not doing as much as I could. I’d love to put my name all over this blog and show the world how hard I am trying to be a mom but I don’t think it’s appropriate quite yet, although it would feel really freeing.
I’m really just trying to relax. Actually, as I am writing this I just got a dark second line on my Easy @ Home OPK! I’m on cycle day 16 which is usually when I get a peak so I will probably ovulate tomorrow. I think we’ve given it a good chance this month but I also feel like we give it a good chance every month.
So although it’s not much of an update, things are going great and I’m trying to stay positive all while thinking about our next step as we get into the year mark of trying to conceive. It brings up a lot of emotions for me so I am trying to shelf the issue until June, when I have my year-follow up appointment with my OBGYN. Again, if you have advice on that too, give it to me!
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Have a great week, Dreamers!