Cycle Twelve, Day One
I don't have much to say today, other than I feel so angry. I feel like I gave this cycle everything I had and it still didn't work which makes me think, something just has to be wrong -- right?
This cycle, I did acupuncture for the first time, I took Mucinex the 5 days leading up to ovulation, I used Soft Cup to keep the swimmers in, I used Pre-Seed (for the 4th cycle in a row with no success), and I had a really strong ovulation per the test strip. I did my inflammation diet all cycle and we did the deed 4 out of 6 days around ovulation. I honestly could not have put more effort into this, so I'm angry. I'm disappointed in my body.
Moving forward, I don't know what I want to do yet. I keep thinking that taking cycle twelve off would be nice but I don't know if I can do that. I have a doctor appointment on June 7th where we are going to talk about the fact that we've been trying for almost twelve complete cycles with no success and I'm going to talk about doing bloodwork, and ultrasound, and ask more information on the surgery for Endometriosis. I feel like I need a definite diagnosis and I know that surgery is the only way to do that.
This cycle, we are going to tell our families that we are trying and struggling with conceiving.
Because my body wouldn't get pregnant, I now have to do all of this "stuff" and I am so annoyed by it.
That's all I can say today, I'll work on more blog posts for this coming week. I am so appreciative of you all!